Heart Goes Numb

How do you pick up the pieces of a relationship you once had?

How do you restore the lost love?

There were many times where things ran flawlessly and everything was in what seemed like a harmonious balance.  Problems were small and love was plentiful.

On the other side of the equation, there were just as many time periods where everything went wrong and love was nowhere to be found. Continue reading “Heart Goes Numb”

Time Travel, Meditation, and Alternate Reality

I walk almost everyday. My goal is to get the blood flowing through my body, stretch out my legs, get some fresh air, exercise, and think. Yes I said think.

When most people think of meditation they think of a buddhist monk sitting cross legged with their fingers touching their thumbs chanting the sound of “ohhmmmmmm”. But you may be surprised to realize that meditation is merely an attempt to clear the mind of excess garbage and stress. Continue reading “Time Travel, Meditation, and Alternate Reality”

Something Worth Living For

In the rugged mountains somewhere the wind is lashing through the air, punishing all those caught in it’s wrath. The snow is chaotic and blinding, preventing many from finding their way. The air is brutally cold, freezing everything in place.

I am lost out here. I am cold. I am hungry. I can take no more. I am ready to sit down where I am and cross into the underworld. I can go no further. I sit down and exhale deeply. I can see my breath, but it is quickly lost in the fury of the wind and snow. Vanishing quickly, letting me know that I too will share the same fate if I sit here any longer. Continue reading “Something Worth Living For”

One Hundred Trash Bags

One of the first items we bought when we moved into this house together was a box that contained one hundred trash bags, there are some left, but like the flower in the beauty and the beast, it seems that their time is running out.

The trash bags soon became a token of longevity for us and we regularly commented on how long they had lasted. Because it was one of the first items we purchased together, it instantly became a symbol of our new beginning. That box of one hundred trash bags have more meaning to us than to just take out the trash. Continue reading “One Hundred Trash Bags”

What is Wrong Here?

“Okay fine…we’ll go.”

He realized as soon as he said it that he had given in again. He had told himself that he wouldn’t continue do to this to himself anymore. This was not the lifestyle he wanted, it was not the one he imagined – ever; but then again, he couldn’t picture himself with anyone else either. Continue reading “What is Wrong Here?”

Loving Arms

Once again I head off on an adventure but something is different this time.

It was not long ago that when I charged into battle, into the unknown, into uncharted territory, not knowing what I’d face and not caring, that I knew in the end, that no matter what I had to endure, I would return to those loving arms. Continue reading “Loving Arms”

Wasting Life Away

You have a job, you have bills, you get a raise, you get more bills, you lose a job, you try to reduce bills. This is the sum of your life and it happens over and over again.

One more payment, one more month, next month will be better. Continue reading “Wasting Life Away”